I woke up late one bright sunny morning as i had hardly slept the last night.The window on my bedside displayed the wondrous sights nature offered and i could feel the cool early morning breeze on my face which was coming thence.
I loved nature.This should make me happy.
But it didnt.It simply couldnt.Yesterday's encounter had left its deep imact on my mind.I came across a person who once was my destiny,my only hope.By now you would have guessed that this must be another of those teenage love stories.You might call it that,but for me it defined my life once.And by the way I felt today,I realised that deep down inside i was still hopelessly in love with him.
........You.Do you remember me? like I remember you?
Do you spend your life going back in your mind to the time
Coz I,I walk the streets alone,i hate being on my own.
And everyone can see that i really fell,and i am going through hell
Thinking about you or somebody else......
Somebody wants you,somebody needs you.....
Somebody hopes that someday you would see
That somebody's me.........
Enrique's song that i had heard a million times already still seemed all that I had in my mind,all that I felt for him.
It was in my 11th standard that i met him.He was a new student and like all of them he was looking for his class.
"Excuse me.Where's XI 'A'?" he asked
"Go straight and then turn to your left,2nd classroom."
I met him in the class again.He smiled and waved at me as if saying thanks.I waved back.I spoke to him after class to ask if he was comfortable.
One thing led to another.In a month or two,i became extremely comfortable in his company.Assigments,lectures and peer pressure brought us even closer.He was always there for me,instructing like a father,caring like a brother,yet being just a friend.We discussed crooked mechanics problems while our chemistry developed.Calculus was forming our equation.But I never realised it.All I had in my mind back then was career,future and success.
Finally,the moment of separation arrived.On the last day of school,all of us were meeting each other,with promises of always being in touch no matter where we end up being.Some of these were meant to be broken ,that i came to know later.There,amongst all that babble I met him one last time,until yesterday.
Time flew by as it is meant to.Both of us got into colleges.We spoke to each other but i suddenly started feeling as if a permanent void had been created in my life.His voice,his face,everything that he did for me just wasn't ready to get out of my mind.I craved for him more and more as each day passed,and this made me all the more hesitant to speak to him.What if he didnt love me as i loved him? I didnt have the courage to face rejection,and so I cut myself from him.
Time is the best healer.His thoughts took a backseat in my mind as I got entangled in this web of wordly affairs.My life had become a lake,which had lots of regular activity going on within it but it was a calm one.And then suddenly god decided to throw a pebble and disturb the serenity.
Walking down the lane of a mall ,I saw him coming towards me.My mind stopped working as if the blood supply to it had been cut.My hands became numb and cold.I stood where I was,dumbstruck.He came towards me and in an overjoyed tone he said"Where have you been these three years?Why did you vanish suddenly?Thank God i finally managed to find you again.Did I do some mistake that you had started avoiding me completely? Now say something or is it like you dont want to speak to me?"
So many questions were thrown at me once.I had the answer to each one of them."You are the only one I could speak to forever"I wanted to say."Lets sit somewhere"was all i could say.We spoke of old times and once again I relived all those beatiful moments of school life;the times when we were untouched by the harsh realities of the world,when we had big dreams to realise and the world was our oyster.Once again his simple sweetness got the better of me and I was back to being the joyful person i once used to be.We exchaged numbers and he asked me to meet him again the next day.I went back home,my steps heavier and my mind lighter at the same time.
His thoughts left little room in my mind ,so sleeping seemed out of question.What was I going to do tomorrow? Would it be proper to meet him? Should I speak my heart out to him?Enrique's song echoed within my soul,and finally I decided what I would do.
We met at the place where we had decided.We spoke about various things and then suddenly i said"Do you remember what used to be one of our favourite songs back then?"
"Which one are you talking about? We had so many common favorites."He said.
"This one" I said and played the song -
Day after day,time pass away,and I just cant get you off my mind.
nobody knows,I hide it inside,I keep on searching but I cant find,
The courage to show,to letting you know
I've never felt so much love before.
And once again I 'm thinking about taking the easy way out.
But if I let you go,I'll never know
What my life would be holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me
How will i know
If I let you go...........
The lyrics of the song created the perfect symphony for our hearts.We looked into each others eyes and I was gathering the courage to say something.But all I wanted to do was keep looking into his eyes forever,and words refused to come out anyway.I was dealing with such varied emotions when suddenly he blurted out"HERE....THIS SONG...THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT I WANTED TO SAY TO YOU....."
"What?"I couldnt believe my ears.Was this some kind of a joke?
"Yes.I made the mistake of letting you go once but my life is meaningless without you.Even if you dont feel the same for me I will have no regrets,because i would have cursed myself more had I not told you this today.God gave me one more chance to get back the love of my life,and I didnt want to miss it."
His deep brown eyes where again looking into mine as if searching for the answer.
I picked up my cellphone and all i could do was play this song-
From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on
From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on
I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you......
"HERE....THIS SONG....THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT I WANTED TO SAY TO YOU....."
